Parting ways...

Parting ways


1) going different ways.
2) away from something/someone u are attached to.
3) not together.

Too many definitions, one meaning - letting go so that one can move on..
Things, people, Memories, Thoughts,etc, - why is it so difficult to part ways from them? Letting go means bringing about a change in you - your life. Change- a spice of life,a mandatory thing that takes place - cant avoid it. Still. Very difficult. to accept. To move on. Very difficult to let go!
Recently i let go of something i was very very attached to. It had a very important place in my life.Although it was related to a chapter of my life which i have closed forever, but still, i was very use to having it around me. but now i hav lost it forever.i have been sulkin since i lost it and cant accept the fact that it isnt with me anymore! it was like a habit that suddenly broke; like a part of me suddenly not existin anymore.terribly hurt for losing something so costly n dearly.BUT - relieved !! cried - yet contented !! Sulking - yet fine !! yes, i do know that it was something i could have avoided but now that it has happened, i have to come to terms with it. Its gone and is never comin back.That chapter of my life does not have any existence for me anymore. GOOD !! Its a change which i m now gettin use to. i always use to get the urge to get rid of it. but i knew i would have never been able to do that. "you can never get rid of things u are soo attached to..let them get rid of it on their own!" i jus said dat to my frnd the other day. it was never in me to get rid of it.And so it happened.....on its own. Out of the blue. Swept me in total shock n numbness! I MISS IT.. a lot. cant stop thinkin about it.but i guess thats how its suppose to be. SO BE IT !!...

R.I.P. - you will always hold a special place in me.

I have also lost a piece of my present time!..it meant a lot to me - Still does!.. It was the only thing that reminded me to move on n go ahead in life. something that made me take a step further - motivated me everyday towards something totally new for me. Something scary,yet exciting - like a territory i never thought i'd enter. But this helped me to go where i would shudder to go otherwise. now i have lost that too!!...(sorrrryyyy)...

Since past two months or more, i have lost out on a lot, people especially!!.. but what i lost now has left me truly devastated..like never before !..torn me into pieces..the rope to which i was clinging on to has broken. yet, i m ok!.. Coz wat i am left withmay not be something that i m use to, but is definitely the best i could ever get. so i have to start again and - I AM READY!!!!.. one has to face a lot of sadness, difficulties n troubles before reachin to the peak of happiness.. now i m beginning to think i m gettin pretty close to the peak..so maybe it is true,that, watever happens, happens for the best!!...

P.S. : thanks for being there when i went all ballistic on losing something so foolish yet important..You are the best and cant thank you enough for tolerating me n taking my crap.Many a times i do act difficult but i dont mean to be so. but knowing the fact that you are around to to take care of me and catch me when i fall, gives me more strength to carry on in life!...


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