blessed enuf??...

okiee.. lemme get it very clear, NOOO i m not in love with sum1 else's love, n NOOOO i dnt pee in public !! shheesshhh !! i m a gal awrite !! how can u even think of askin me dat !!!.. n NOOO i dnt stay confused 24/7.. jus at times wen it seeps into me!!! goddd u need to get a life b4 askin me such questions !

so i thot its high time i update my blog.. got a few requests *thank u thank u* ! lollzz.. anywys, now here i m wonderin wat to pen down this time which will not leave u d urge to ask me silly ques !!..

am i blessed enuf or m i one of those ppl who hav no rights to ask for anythin coz OTHERS think that they already have everythin?? i look around n find ppl happy, smiling n laughin, sumtimes for no apparent reason.. can i do that? be +ve but for wat? friends come n friends go.. they stay, help or even ditch n not feel a thing bout it. but still, i kno ppl who will not b bothered by it.. r they stonehearted or jus hesitant to show wat they actually feel?

i hav hardly been hesitant to show how i feel. n y shud i b reluctant? especially with friends..i mean, they r my frnds after all, if they wudnt understand me then who will? but then even with closest frnds, m i suppose to draw THAT LINE of self control?? draw that line to express myself? but y? if i hav accepted them however they r, who ever they r then even they shud b reciprocating the same rite? well thats wat i guess soo.. but then wat if ur frnds dnt feel the same? wat if the LINE is required?..

tore between the hope to hav more n the satisfaction of already having enuf, i feel that afterall d frndship n kinship, that LINE is important. god knos when u will land up hurtin sum1 whom u never intend to hurt at all... it happens yaa.. mark my word, it always does.. but how do u avoid it?? it can happen to u n it can happen to me too.. but then wat wud u do in such a situation?

life is gr8.. no regrets, well, except a few but those r the obvious ones !!.. nothin out of d new !.. nothin out of the OLD !!.. so if ur life is jus right, will it b wrong to take risks n ask for more? will it b wrong if 1 wants sumthin else instead of the regular cup of tea? well i dnt think so.. but then how far can u go to risk everything u hav n go for sumthin u hav no guarantee of? i kno i kno, any which ways, life mein koi guarantee nahi.. but still, wat WILL u do?

these are few of the things that go on in my head..well, this goes for 24/7 !! lollzzz.. still callin me confused? watever !!!!!!! as if u neva went thru these !!..

byee n takecare
love,
rush...